got rid of lunch now get rid of dinner.
I have an optimum time to eat from 4-7pm, so i need to avoid these times.
Did you know that obese is classified as being 2 stones over your ideal weight, does that make me obese then since i'm 9 stone and my ideal weight is 7 stone.
Weighed myself half way through the day, bad girl Bianca (yes my name)
My "FRIEND" said i look weird when i smile, great tell someone who is depressed all the time that they shouldn't smile.
Had to spend after school time at school with people i hate, doing things i hate; to make it worse, everyone keeps complementing my friend all the time because she got into a really gd boarding school, oh isn't she pretty, isn't she clever, isn't she funny and witty, isn't she thin, isn't her hair long and beautiful, isn't she fucking perfect.
It just occured to me that she could be bulimic, i mean she had a drastic weight loss though she's not active and is always eating, and she always goes to the bathroom after lunch now. Should i ask her or focus on my own fucked up mind?
crying myself to sleep now, i sttarted crying on the bus that i had to get off and walk the rest of the way home, i was thinking about who i would send my suicide note to and what it would say and how i would die, i've got it down to ingesting loads of ibuprofen, slashing my wrists, stabbing myself in numerous places, setting clothes and hair alight, then jumping off 5 storey balcony.